Ramblings of a madman

Ever since I joined as an intern at my current office. My sleeping patterns have vastly changed. My sleeping period normally falls between 2am to 7am or 8am depending upon whether I need to head to the office or the clients place. It was a far cry from when I used to sleep at 9-10 pm and wake up at pretty much the same time during my college days. The fact that the day time was consumed by work made me switch all the things used to do at college during the night. The activities ranging from watching night shows to watching documentaries and random stand up comedy on YouTube. Also I have gained some 10-15 kilos and lost so much hair since joining as an intern, which primarily is due to the lack of any physical exertion and too much mental exertion. Recently I decided to donate Rs.850 every month to Pulse 7z. Yep, that is the name of a gym. Every day I try to get up early, every day i suck. 6-8 is the time I am in deep sleep. I get all kinds of dreams during that period. I have

What is it that makes us value things lowly when they are available in abundance? The usage of the word local colloquially is always is derisive and not reflecting good upon. Someone who is always available is quite always taken for granted. Why is the mere fact of being available more makes it unattractive for a person? It has turned out to be fruitful day. I missed this so much! The riding of the motorbike, the ponds, the lakes, marshland, the beach, the deep blue sky, that gentle sound which is a honey to the ear, Tamil. Never have I been happy to be swarmed by a group of Auto/Taxi guys who tries to rip you off in Tamil. I went through so many ecstatic moments today. Case in point being when I was riding along the Maraimalai Adigalar Bridge and I saw the clouds and the bright blue. I was in tears. Another moment where I noticed the lake in the backdrop of the Mountain in the Pallavaram periya eri. The line of buildings on the end of the marshland or rather on the marshland was

Started the day by watching the highlights of today's Smackdown live. They are building the Nakamura - AJ feud quite well. I was really thrilled to see Samoa Joe on Smackdown Live. The guy's promo are legit gangsta. He says it with so much conviction you just believe it's true. Ended up watching this movie called "I am Legend". It was a load of bullcrap. The movie deals with a plot where the human race has almost gone extinct due to a genetically modified virus to cure cancer. The story starts 3 years after the virus spreading, in NYC which has been abandoned. You see Will Smith driving a god damn car with a fancy jacket, hi-tech gun and a german shepherd. How the fuck did he get these? Who the fuck gets him petrol? He tries to hunt deer, chasing them using his car. The roads are better than what highways in India are and listen to this, the motherfucker gives the dog a fucking bathtub bath. Who gives you electricity? Who supplies water for this? Then this fake a

It is not unusual for people to have exclusively online friendships. I am talking about people whom you met through some social network and then went to forge close friendships with them. A social network is a nice way to meet people with a common interest. These friendships bloom because it totally takes out the initial awkwardness that comes with opening up with someone. In real life, you rarely meet people purely because they have common interests. It may be because you went to school together or are from the same neighborhood or are part of a community or are they went to college together or were colleagues. Most of these friendships are not friendships for the sake of being friends but are just something you stumble upon. When it comes to online friendships it is totally the opposite. Personally, for me, none of the "friendships", to this date, that were forged online have lasted more than 3 years. There is this odd conversation once in blue moon, but other than tha

Hmm. It was has been of a bit of break since I last posted. The swimming classes are going ok, I am now learning the breaststroke with the swimming aid. I have somewhat cut off myself from all the frills, I deleted my Instagram, deleted my twitter, got rid of WhatsApp. Now only people who really want to talk to me will talk to me. I am cutting out all the small talk and bullshit out of my life. I am coping pretty well not having to regurgitate everything in an instant. I am really surprised how well I am taking this.  As always things got fucked up again. It was always fucked up and I just didn't see it. I just wasted a month because of these people who were trying to con me. Fucking pieces of shit! I am absolutely clueless. I have money to get me through for another 4-5 months, because my spending is so low, as I hardly met anyone, the last month and that is only time actually spend a lot. I just hate sitting at home purely because of the taboo that comes with it. You just g

A few weeks back I was relishing the fact that I will have no work to do and I can sit at home and do whatever I want. I thought I can be happy sitting at home, watching movies, documentaries and other videos on youtube. I didn't quite think about the fact that there needs to be a person with whom I can talk about those videos. A month has passed and it is already boring as shit. It will be boring when you don't have company (YSWIDT) The world around is busy doing their daily routine and getting by with their life, while I sit at home wondering with the whom will I have the next proper conversation. It's been weeks since I actually expressed anything of meaning, to any person. It really sucks. I have so much to talk but have no one to listen. So I am going to scream into this abyss at least once a day Boy! If this is how old age is going to be, I don't want to live a day beyond 40. I hope I die in the next 15-20 years. I am already fed up with this purposeless bull